Become Stronger

       My life isn't all bad and actually it is quite good as can be. Things have happened that I can't take back nor at this time wish to take back. Its like they say..what doesn't kill you does make you stronger. See all the things that I have been through have simply made me stronger and shown me who people truly are. Yes there has been many tears shed and many prayers have went up; but all in all its all good.

My Strong Leo and I

      My love has been doing a great job and has dramatically improved. Things have been so good and they continue to get better with each passing day. We truly are happy and our love is becoming deeper as it once was...actually deeper. This pain I've felt and still sadly feel has only proven that my love is merely human. He makes mistakes and all I can do is hope that he has learned from his mistakes. I'm praying that he has truly learned and will do things to make sure that never happens again. I can only accept it and move forward with my life. I also pray for strength because every day has it's challenges and the devil tempts me every day.
    Yes I will watch for the signs that all women watch for in their man, but I can't go crazy. I can't continue to drive myself crazy with worry and just fear for it happening again. I can't live like that and I can't let my daughter grow up with her mother acting like that. I want to show her how to trust her man and show him that she trusts him. I want her to be proud of her dad not sad because he caused her mom pain. I don't want her to see that. I've been getting better at checking my feelings and making sure I don't go off like I use to in the past. I guess its all a part of maturing and I'm starting to get to the point were its getting easier when I'm provoked.
   If you can relate then just work though it...if you feel it is worth it. If the person doesn't seem like they care and they are not at all regretful or they're doing the same shyt that they BEEN doing...then yea drop them!

Work n Love

Those two words should go together...Love and Work because they just do. 

       The love I have for my daughter makes me work hard to provide n care for her. The love I have for her pushes me to work with her, to ensure that she learns right from wrong. I want to help her but I also know she needs to do things on her own. I am so in love with my little girl! Seeing her brings me great joy. Don't get me wrong, at times I'm frustrated with her; even angry but I still love her.

LaShai and I

       The love I share for her father is a different t kind of love yet it still requires work as well. Daily work. Sometimes to save from having a pity argument I hold my tongue and don't speak. Everything shouldn't be about winning or losing, in a relationship it should be about what's best. Now there are moments when I MUST speak up for my own sanity! Lol

         See if you don't want to work at the love you have then I feel bad for your partner. I've been there...doing all the work and feeling so alone. It is really not a good feeling at all. Some days I feel like I'm back at square one and doing everything alone, but I know that is truly not the case. Yet is seems that way at times. Things have been improving between my daughter's father and I; hopefully they will continue to improve. I know things won't go back to before I found out because a piece of me that truly loved him died that day, but I think it can be better than what it is now. I actually believe that this can only make us stronger..well make me stronger. Only time will tell and with much prayer my feelings towards him will be more positive than their current negative.

I'll keep ya updated on my progress! :)