Stomach Showdown

People can not make decisions for you. Especially when you feel that the choice you are making is one that is best for you. When it comes to relationships, the job, and your career sometimes you just have to take a leap. Just follow your gut feeling because usually it is the right one. Your heart could just be following an impulse so I don't even care to listen to that one at all usually and sometimes your mind is so critical. So in the end just follow how you truly feel deep down inside the feeling; you have at the pit of your stomach. If I would have followed that feeling then I would have a bit more money than I do right now. I should have thought clearly and followed my intuition.

Can't change the past but I can defiantly work on making the future better. I can't let people make life changing decisions for me. If I make a mistake I will live with that, but living with the feeling that I should have done something when I didn't is so much worse. You never want to think of the "Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda."

If it's something that you want, don't let others decide it for you. My friend said it best "Just take in their opinions and advice for just that....opinions and advice...not the final say." Don't let what others say determine what you're going to do with your life, especially when you feel that your life would be for the better in another direction. You have the final say over your life because at the end of the day you have to be able to sleep with your own personal decisions.

Sift Through The Seas

In search of good friends? Most of the time people realize who their
true friends are too late. Due to a fight or some kind of situation, it
seems as though the good ones are the first to get lashed out at. At
times I feel that it is the fault of your own feelings because those
closest to you have the most power to hurt you. They know you in
and out for the most part and know what your buttons are. Yet in
return you know the same things about them. You can read each
other very well and know basically the workings of that person.

Yes you've guessed it, a situation broke out and I myself was about
to lose on some good friendships. But see I realized my mistakes and have apologized to them and they have forgiven me. See all you have to really do is just face your problems dead on and not just try to let them go away by themselves. We were trying that for a while but I think it was more of a getting your mind right. Trying to figure out what you wanted to say and how you wanted to place your views into
words; minimizing the intensity and tone. The problem has been resolved
and things have gotten better. Strong people have strong friends. They help make me better and I in return do the same.

I'm just glad that through the years I`ve
sifted through my own and found out that they are all true. Well there was
that one or two phony ones but at the end of the day I feel blessed
to have the same people in my life that have been there since the
beginning. Its an honor that I feel everyone should have and if you don't
well then I believe you might need to work on your people skills. I'm just
saying....

Secret to Save

School, School, School.....once you finish you soon realize that you must go back! My roommate has decided that after two years of being graduated, she wants to return.

See, you would assume that if you go back to school and get more educated, then you get paid more. Well in most instances yes, but in others well no. I say no, because in these times that means that companies have to come out the pocket more to pay you and really who wants to do that? Companies have had to lay people off to save money. In some cases people with less experience are being fired, while in a few cases the people with more experience are being laid off. Why is that?

Secret: Companies have found a way to save money....by getting rid of the people that make more. Now I understand that from a business stand point that this would make sense but from a personable stand point this in kinder words sucks! A person goes to school to become more marketable and some end up gettting fired after a few years because they are costing the company too much money!

Seems like everyone in America is trying to make some type of cash flow now a days especially since everything around you is going up but your pay. For instance, my job has frozen all those that are next up for a raise and another job has told their employees that raises are frozen for two years. This is forcing people to get two or even three jobs just to hold on to their house and some just to have enough left over to eat!

Sorry about that, I get carrried away sometimes. Well I believe my roommate has a chance, since she is a teacher. There is a great need for teachers. We'll talk about teachers some other time too!

Sway Sigh

So as I held the phone, I could feel my mind racing and I knew it was about to happen....word vomit! Once out, a wave of relief fall over me and then it began to register to me everything that I had just said. (In all actuality it wasn't word vomit more like word dribble.) Either way it goes more was said than needed to be and I found myself apologizing....once again.

See I find my life randomly like that. Things will be moving smoothly along and then there isn't just a bump but a crater that knocks me completely off path and onto an entirely different continent! Yes I know, things can only get better; well things do and then I come into play and mess them back up again. My misfortune is usually someone's happiness though. I'm still trying to figure out how to turn this one around though.....

Sometime soon he'll forgive me....I mean I am me and I'm mean...not all the time but it does come out when I'm feeling cornered or someone is trying to sway my thinking to theirs. I'm still a work in progress....its just at a standstill at the moment.