Stick to it

My motivation should be stronger than this....

        Well those are my thoughts ever time I stop a workout routine. I can remember working out faithful while in college. It wasn't to look at guys nor be seen, it was simply for the joy of working out. I LOVED IT. I think the difference now is that I need and must work out in order to change my current situation. No I'm not all down on myself and feeling sorry for myself, nor am I going to blame things on my pregnancy (my daughter is 2 yrs old now). My problem area is the same like everyone else, pretty much, my abs. To be very frank about it, it is my lower abs. Just can't seem to shake it and I feel it has gotten bigger.
        My journey begin with high hopes, full of motivation, and ready to get it. Started out doing Hip Hop Abs, lasted a solid 2 weeks, then just died down. What happened? Not sure, assignments begin to roll in and time just escaped me. So yes basically I got lazy. Second try, same thing high hopes, full of motivation, and ready to get it! Started doing FocusT25 lasted a solid week! Now the problem with FocusT25 was that I was extremely dehydrated and had a constant headache throughout the entire week. I just couldn't seem to consume enough water to compensate for the amount of water I was loosing. My boyfriend was beginning to worry about me but by the end of the week I was feeling good. THEN I got sick and truly didn't feel like working out, so I didn't.
        So now I really want to get back in the swing of things and I know the reason that working out just isn't doing it for me is because it just isn't fun any more. I'm not working out just because I like it, I'm working out because I need to loose this tummy I've obtained! One of my amazing friends wants to do a long distance workout dedication session with me. So we are now going to be doing Insanity workouts! Yes I know...dehydration risk is high for real, but this time I know how much water to drink so I should be fine! I'm truly going to stick to it because we are going to call to check up on each other and keep track of each other's progress. We are doing the full 60day program as well! I'll keep you all updated on how this goes. I did the fit test yesterday and boy let me tell you...I was sweating! But cardio is what I need to loose this tummy!!
Stay tuned for the action!

I'm Back

Yes Yes!! It has been a while but I am back on. I've been away working and going to school to become an Occupational Therapy Assistant.

So things have been going well with me! My daughter is now 2 years old and I just feel like time has truly flew by! Currently she has strep throat and an ear infection in her right ear. So she isn't a happy little baby right now, but we are working with it. I was in the doctor office from 11:15am till 1:53pm! Sorry but for me that is a VERY long time. But I'm just happy she has been diagnosed and I'll be picking up her meds in a few from Walgreens.

Relationship wise, things have actually progressed and have been very well these days. He is working so hard to make sure everything is fine for us at the house, which I love and appreciate so much! Since I have quit things have been very...VERY tight, but we are making it through. Things are starting to come into place so we should be in a better place in November.

Oh and I'm trying to workout to get my sexy back:

I'll keep yall in the loop, hope everyone has been doing well!

Work at Trust

             Once trust has been taken out of a relationship it takes a lot of time and hard work to get it back. It doesn't happen over night and it actually takes work from both partners. Though many people feel that the one who caused the distrust (call them A) should do all the work, that is not true.
            See the other person (call them B) must also work to ensure that they are trying to trust the person again. B must not assume things and must stop looking at A under a microscope. B must also stop analyzing everything that A says and does. This may sound like a lot and it is but these things have to be done. Its not going to happen over night, but with time, B will be able to clear their mind of the thoughts and fearful feelings that have suddenly taken over.

            Now A has to do some work as well. They have to be an open book to B. They have to allow B to see their phone or emails when requested and not get upset if B is found sneaking into their personal things. At first this is going to be very hard for A, but they must believe that their actions have caused B to not believe anything they say nor do. If they allow B to see all these things then over time B will feel they have nothing to worry about and will become less suspicious. Yet if B keeps finding more things that make A look bad, then this is going to hinder the growth of trust.

1. So A needs to first decide if they want to be true to B or just end the relationship. 
2. Also B needs to decide if they are willing to work on trusting A or if its not worth it.
3. Finally and most importantly if the relationship is important to A then A must apologize to B and work on showing B daily how much they treasure their relationship. 

        Overall relationships require work and sometimes when bumps in the road happen, more work has to be involved but don't give up if its worth it...just put in more work.

Become Stronger

       My life isn't all bad and actually it is quite good as can be. Things have happened that I can't take back nor at this time wish to take back. Its like they say..what doesn't kill you does make you stronger. See all the things that I have been through have simply made me stronger and shown me who people truly are. Yes there has been many tears shed and many prayers have went up; but all in all its all good.

My Strong Leo and I

      My love has been doing a great job and has dramatically improved. Things have been so good and they continue to get better with each passing day. We truly are happy and our love is becoming deeper as it once was...actually deeper. This pain I've felt and still sadly feel has only proven that my love is merely human. He makes mistakes and all I can do is hope that he has learned from his mistakes. I'm praying that he has truly learned and will do things to make sure that never happens again. I can only accept it and move forward with my life. I also pray for strength because every day has it's challenges and the devil tempts me every day.
    Yes I will watch for the signs that all women watch for in their man, but I can't go crazy. I can't continue to drive myself crazy with worry and just fear for it happening again. I can't live like that and I can't let my daughter grow up with her mother acting like that. I want to show her how to trust her man and show him that she trusts him. I want her to be proud of her dad not sad because he caused her mom pain. I don't want her to see that. I've been getting better at checking my feelings and making sure I don't go off like I use to in the past. I guess its all a part of maturing and I'm starting to get to the point were its getting easier when I'm provoked.
   If you can relate then just work though it...if you feel it is worth it. If the person doesn't seem like they care and they are not at all regretful or they're doing the same shyt that they BEEN doing...then yea drop them!

Too Simple to be True

        How do relationships work? I use to think they were so much easier than ppl make them out to be. See once you know someone, you should know the do's n dont's of that person. Not saying your going to get it right every time but you should have a general idea.
       So what happens when you have a person that doesn't do the things to make you happy? What happens when they can't believe that its just THAT simple to please you? What happens when you find out they did those things for someone else...not you. Yet you try to work through it but they still don't do the things for you. They tell you they don't know why, they just can't....
        That's when you constantly are hurt. That's when feelings of being unimportant, not needed, nor cared for creep in. Trying to work past them alone is hard especially when the answer is so close. Your not asking for the stars and the moon but they make it seem like you're asking so much from them. They argue with you just to make you feel you're asking for too much...yet your heart n soul says you're not.
       See people are so focused on material things that they can't see that life is more than that. That I'm more than that. That a text means so much more...it means you took time out of your day..for me. TIME TIME TIME TIME TIME! It's so precious and people don't understand that. Showing me you care by taking the time out for me means the world to me, but like I mentioned its too simple....people believe things should be harder than that.
     So I still believe relationships can be so much easier...people just make them extent difficult.

Something you won't or can't do...someone else will.

Happy

       Woke up feeling great! Miss. L laying next to me and she looks so cute! She is just growing like crazy and already she thinks she is grown; telling me no and walking away from me.
       I'm enjoying being a mommy!

Insight in me

Your dominant sense is SIGHT - Your dominant sense - soFeminine.co.uk: "emotional: you're quick to spot and feel other people's�emotions, and you're good at telling what people are thinking.�You feel their joy or pain easily and it affects you."

This is so me!! I can feel when people are upset and it DOES really bother me. Its like their emotions become mine...