So as I held the phone, I could feel my mind racing and I knew it was about to happen....word vomit! Once out, a wave of relief fall over me and then it began to register to me everything that I had just said. (In all actuality it wasn't word vomit more like word dribble.) Either way it goes more was said than needed to be and I found myself apologizing....once again.
See I find my life randomly like that. Things will be moving smoothly along and then there isn't just a bump but a crater that knocks me completely off path and onto an entirely different continent! Yes I know, things can only get better; well things do and then I come into play and mess them back up again. My misfortune is usually someone's happiness though. I'm still trying to figure out how to turn this one around though.....
Sometime soon he'll forgive me....I mean I am me and I'm mean...not all the time but it does come out when I'm feeling cornered or someone is trying to sway my thinking to theirs. I'm still a work in progress....its just at a standstill at the moment.
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